PolarHamster

I've been thinking a lot about earning some money to maintain my (future?) horse. My father is a doctor and my mother owns a company, and they say there is not enough money... Unfortunately I'm a student, and university will not give me money or possibility to get a job. I've even considered quitting university and getting a job...  I'm afraid that if I don't achieve my life dream now, as a young person, I will never do. I've thought about reducing my life-costs to the least, giving up any activity and selling my books and things. I even tried to win the lottery.. ahaha that's so dumb.. But as long as daydreaming isn't a crime.. Maybe, I th

Well.. Hi everyone! I don't actually know what this journal should be.. and what I should make of it.. so I'll make anything I need out of it. I actually thought it could have lasted forever, and I was wrong, totally wrong. And I wasn't even glad to find that out. Anyway, it was a weird sensation. But so deadly natural. I just felt.. what every other person in love on the earth feels.. the ground shaking, the hands shaking, the mind and heart shaking. I was breaking up, and it was so terribly suffocating me. And that sorrow, for the first time in my life, wasn't a sweet pleasure. I found it very difficult, to give up my pride.. or at least